Sssnow time, baby!

Luni, marti si vineri am cele mai grele zile. Ca negrii pe plantatie, stau toata ziua la sapa. Adica la universitate. Ora dupa ora, si daca se nimereste sa am vreo pauza, tzushti la biblioteca. Martia asta nu a fost o exceptie. Am iesit pe la 5pm din biblioteca, sa fug la un seminar, cu gandurile imprastiate("oare ce face cineva drag?", "futu-i mama ma-sii de ploaie, execrabila vremea la englezii astia...", "oare ce m-a impiedicat ca de o luna incoace sa nu imi cumpar o nenorocita de umbrela?", "oare unde naiba este ceva agentie Loto, poate ar fi o idee buna sa incep sa joc, sunt cu bugetul la zero" etc). Si m-a trasnit asa deodata, la iesirea din biblioteca....taddddaaa!!!!!
Z A P A D A ... C`etait incroyable!!! Pure magic!!! Ningea cu fulgi mari, ca-n basme. Nici n-am mai tinut cont de frigul ce m-a adus instant intr-o stare de vertij, am pus-o pe seama ninsorii. Sigur, ninsoarea cadea peste o ploaie zaluda ce tinuse cateva ore bune, de-aia tipic britanica, baga-mi-as picioarele-n ea. Si nici nu urma sa dureze mult, din pacate. Zapada, zic. S-a asezat un strat alb pe masini, suficient cat sa jubilez incontinuu pana acasa. Mi s-a facut dor de scortisoara, de covrigeii lu` mama, de ski, de munte si de un semineu inflacarat.
Incredibil, in octombrie scriu un post despre zapada.
Nu vreau sa fac confidente emo, dar in ultimul timp starea mea n-a fost cea mai buna, am ceva probleme de sanatate, si nici moralul nu-i at its highest level. Insa zapada asta de marti (a cata oara sa va spun ca orice s-ar intampla, marti e ziua mea norocoasa?haha!) a fost ca un boost al energiei care se apropia vertiginos de zero. Walking in a winter wonderland, exact asa a fost pana am ajuns acasa. Acasa, unde mi-am facut un ceai cu scortisoara si mi-am pus fizicul in pat si m-am culcat. Am visat cu castele si zapada si printi si cai albi si inimi de gheata ce se topesc la seminee...

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11 Septembrie. Presa vuieste, curg stiri pe banda despre cei 7 ani scursi de la atentatul ce a zguduit totul, incepand de la cele doua turnuri ale Wold Trade Center pana la siguranta omului. Tot ieri, Cioaca s-a dus la tribunal sa divorteze de nevasta-sa, Elodia, care e cel mai probabil moarta si bine de tot ascunsa pe te-miri-ce coclauri. Tot numai un zambet, domnul Cioaca, cu mecla-i tampa cu care m-a obisnuit de putinele ori cand l-am vazut, a declarat ca vrea toate bunurile Elodiei. Ete na tupeu, dupa ce-i tai gatu`, sa mai si pretinzi ca e o curva care te-a inselat si sa ii iei toate cele. Tot din categoria men whore face parte si divortul printesei Caradja de cretinul ala care ii iubea proprietatea de la Ploiesti. Si care vrea inapoi inelul de casatorie. Si care a cerut sa-l cheme si pe dansul tot Caradja, si sa fie numit si, desigur, "Print". Manca-v-as gurile de curve masculine...
Dupa puseul asta de indignare de feminista frustrata, trec si la lucruri mai pamantene.
Adica de-astea simple, ordinare, de-ale mele...
Saptamana asta mi-am vazut ultima data iubitul, inainte sa plec. Sigur ca n-a fost o scena lacrimogena, nu l-am condus la aeroport, nu ne-am imbratisat 2 ore la coltul strazii la care s-a petrecut actiunea, nici n-am stat macar toata ziua aia impreuna. Si toate "nu"-urile astea...pt ca nici n-am realizat ca e chiar asa de aproape plecarea. Da, mai e putin si m-am carat. Nici nu-i sigur ca imi baga aia net in camera prea rapid, deci si blogul asta se duce la dracu. Totusi, am mancat impreuna un tiramisu, ceea ce a mai indulcit suparatoarea situatiune.
Azi m-am dus sa donez sange. In caz ca nu ati realizat - de fapt nici eu, pana azi, nu eram prea sigura- trebuie sa va spun ca sunt un cetatean exemplar al adorabilului oras pe care il populez. Am 19 ani, deci varsta eligibila pt donare de sange am atins-o abia anul trecut. Si am donat deja de 2 ori. Azi voiam sa o fac a 3-a oara, dar nu mi-a iesit, sunt anemica, am hemoglobina scazuta. Imi pare rau, dar n-am ce-i face, decat sa ma pun pe ingurgitat pastile - Calciu, Magneziu, Vitamine si alte cele. M-am dus apoi sa iau troleul sa vin spre casa, iar la coborare am facut un act de binefacere cu trimitere spre octogenarii care circula cu transportul in comun. I-am carat unei tanti plasele pana acasa, si nu i-am cerut bani, nici nu i-am dat in cap, nici macar marul pe care a vrut sa mi-l dea nu l-am acceptat, nici in casa nu i-am intrat. Nu spun asta ca sa ma dau mare, o spun ca sa demonstrez ca si tanara generatie e capabila de gesturi de ajutorare a batranilor, chiar nu e nevoie sa fim denigrati in halul asta, cu tot valul de emo kidsi si manelari si infractori juvenili...
Acum 10 minute au iesit pe usa casei niste fete care isi cauta chirie. Au venit sa vada apartamentul. Le-a placut. Ce ciudat sa iesi din casa ta ca sa o dai in chirie, dupa ce ai stat atata vreme in ea... Ma gandeam la implicatiile emotionale, la legatura dintre mine si camera mea, la relatia mai mult decat cordiala pe care o aveam cu acest mic lacas. Mi-am vazut pe net camera in care voi sta la facultate, nu zic, e spatioasa, e mobilata, are caldura, are geamuri (mari!), are tot ce-i trebuie, doar ca va trebui sa o iau de la zero cu ea, pana mi-o educ, pana mi-o fac pe placul meu, pana ajungem sa ne intelegem din priviri... Relatia cu o casa e ca si relatia cu un om. Ma gandeam acum si la relatia asta a mea, cu omul pe care tot zic atata ca-l iubesc. Nu mi-ar fi imposibil sa renunt, dar ar fi al naibii de greu. Nu poti sa spui : "Gata. Din clipa asta nu-l mai iubesc." Normal ca omul are capacitatea asta magica de a se redresa, de a merge mai departe, de a gasi solutii mai bune, de a se auto-depasi, de a , de a, de a... Dar chestia cu iubirea sta altfel. Dupa ce te-a luat, dus esti. Inca rationezi, inca te mentii pe linia de plutire (si inca acum parca plutirea e muuult mai placuta), esti tot tu, nu te schimbi, dar doamne, totusi, cate se schimba. As vrea sa spun exact CE sau in cel fel, sau cum sau de ce se schimba, dar nu as putea decat sa debitez niste teorii care mai de care mai subiective, asa ca let me believe it`s magic, pure magic :)
Si acum, sa fie tacamul complet, ma invart la 180 de grade si vreau sa aud pareri despre marele experiment stiintific al secolului. CEL MAI MARE. S-a petrecut miercuri. La Geneva, aproape de granita Elvetiei cu Franta. O echipa mare de tot de oameni de toate natiile au pus la cale o super-masinarie, acceleratorul de particule, care cica poate reproduce big-bang-ul la scara mica. Adica tiny-bang-ul. Desigur ca mass-media ne-a pus la curent cu costurile ei, cum altfel (deja m-am obisnuit atat de mult cu jurnalisti care sa intrebe fotbalisti si vedete: "Da` cat iei pe sezon? Si ceasul a costat macar 100.000 de euro? Da` telefonul, e macar din aur si are macar vreo 30 de diamante incrustate? Oh, cew rochie superba, pun pariu ca a fost peste 10.000 de euro...". Sau vezi titlurile de pe primele pagini ale tabloidelor: "Inca o masina de peste 100.000 de euro in garajul lui X", "Y a cheltuit aseara in clubul Z 6000 de euro pt ca a cumparat o sampanie din anii `20 unei fete din clasa a 12-a de la un liceu din capitala" etc.). Apoi si cu riscurile la care supune acceleratorul de particule Planeta. Vin tsunami-uri, vin seisme de ne ia naiba, vin tornade, dar mai ales, scumpii mei fraieri care credeti in ziare si televiziuni cretine, vine Apocalipsa! Vine sfarsitul lumii, pazea!
Miercuri mi s-a parut si mie ca vine sfarsitul lumii. In aceeasi zi s-a intamplat sa imi vad si eu ultima data iubitul inainte de plecarea in Anglia.
Dar, dupa cum se vede, azi e sambata. Traim. Traiesc si eu. N-a venit Apocalipsa. Life goes on.

The Second Part of the Story

When she awoke refreshed with sleep, she looked round and beheld near a pleasant grove of tall and stately trees. She entered it, and in the midst discovered a fountain, sending forth clear and crystal waters, and fast by, a magnificent palace whose august front impressed the spectator that it was not the work of mortal hands, but the happy retreat of some god. Drawn by admiration and wonder, she approached the building and ventured to enter.

Every object she met filled her with pleasure and amazement. Golden pillars supported the vaulted roof, and the walls were enriched with carvings and paintings representing beasts of the chase and rural scenes, adapted to delight the eye of the beholder. Proceeding onward, she perceived that besides the apartments of state there were others filled with all manner of treasures, and beautiful and precious productions of nature and art.

While her eyes were thus occupied, a voice addressed her, though she saw no one, uttering these words, "Sovereign lady, all that you see is yours. We whose voices you hear are your servants and shall obey all your commands with our utmost care and diligence. Retire, therefore, to your chamber and repose on your bed of down, and when you see fit, repair to the bath. Supper awaits you in the adjoining alcove when it pleases you to take your seat there."

Psyche gave ear to the admonitions of her vocal attendants, and after repose and the refreshment of the bath, seated herself in the alcove, where a table immediately presented itself, without any visible aid from waiters or servants, and covered with the greatest delicacies of food and the most nectareous wines. Her ears too were feasted with music from invisible performers; of whom one sang, another played on the lute, and all closed in the wonderful harmony of a full chorus.

She had not yet seen her destined husband. He came only in the hours of darkness and fled before the dawn of morning, but his accents were full of love, and inspired a like passion in her. She often begged him to stay and let her behold him, but he would not consent. On the contrary he charged her to make no attempt to see him, for it was his pleasure, for the best of reasons, to keep concealed.

"Why should you wish to behold me?" he said. "Have you any doubt of my love? Have you any wish ungratified? If you saw me, perhaps you would fear me, perhaps adore me, but all I ask of you is to love me. I would rather you would love me as an equal than adore me as a god."

This reasoning somewhat quieted Psyche for a time, and while the novelty lasted she felt quite happy. But at length the thought of her parents, left in ignorance of her fate, and of her sisters, precluded from sharing with her the delights of her situation, preyed on her mind and made her begin to feel her palace as but a splendid prison. When her husband came one night, she told him her distress, and at last drew from him an unwilling consent that her sisters should be brought to see her.

So, calling Zephyr, she acquainted him with her husband's commands, and he, promptly obedient, soon brought them across the mountain down to their sister's valley. They embraced her and she returned their caresses.

"Come," said Psyche, "enter with me my house and refresh yourselves with whatever your sister has to offer."

Then taking their hands she led them into her golden palace, and committed them to the care of her numerous train of attendant voices, to refresh them in her baths and at her table, and to show them all her treasures. The view of these celestial delights caused envy to enter their bosoms, at seeing their young sister possessed of such state and splendor, so much exceeding their own.

They asked her numberless questions, among others what sort of a person her husband was. Psyche replied that he was a beautiful youth, who generally spent the daytime in hunting upon the mountains.

The sisters, not satisfied with this reply, soon made her confess that she had never seen him. Then they proceeded to fill her bosom with dark suspicions. "Call to mind," they said, "the Pythian oracle that declared you destined to marry a direful and tremendous monster. The inhabitants of this valley say that your husband is a terrible and monstrous serpent, who nourishes you for a while with dainties that he may by and by devour you. Take our advice. Provide yourself with a lamp and a sharp knife; put them in concealment that your husband may not discover them, and when he is sound asleep, slip out of bed, bring forth your lamp, and see for yourself whether what they say is true or not. If it is, hesitate not to cut off the monster's head, and thereby recover your liberty."

Psyche resisted these persuasions as well as she could, but they did not fail to have their effect on her mind, and when her sisters were gone, their words and her own curiosity were too strong for her to resist. So she prepared her lamp and a sharp knife, and hid them out of sight of her husband. When he had fallen into his first sleep, she silently rose and uncovering her lamp beheld not a hideous monster, but the most beautiful and charming of the gods, with his golden ringlets wandering over his snowy neck and crimson cheek, with two dewy wings on his shoulders, whiter than snow, and with shining feathers like the tender blossoms of spring.

To be continued...

The Story of Cupid and Psyche - Part One

This`ll be a pretty long story. That`s why I decided to deliver it to you piece by piece. If you were ever curious about what Psyche`s story was, well...here it is.


A certain king and queen had three daughters. The charms of the two elder were more than common, but the beauty of the youngest was so wonderful that the poverty of language is unable to express its due praise. The fame of her beauty was so great that strangers from neighboring countries came in crowds to enjoy the sight, and looked on her with amazement, paying her that homage which is due only to Venus herself. In fact Venus found her altars deserted, while men turned their devotion to this young virgin. As she passed along, the people sang her praises, and strewed her way with chaplets and flowers.

This homage to the exaltation of a mortal gave great offense to the real Venus. Shaking her ambrosial locks with indignation, she exclaimed, "Am I then to be eclipsed in my honors by a mortal girl? In vain then did that royal shepherd, whose judgment was approved by Jove himself, give me the palm of beauty over my illustrious rivals, Pallas and Juno. But she shall not so quietly usurp my honors. I will give her cause to repent of so unlawful a beauty."

Thereupon she calls her winged son Cupid, mischievous enough in his own nature, and rouses and provokes him yet more by her complaints. She points out Psyche to him and says, "My dear son, punish that contumacious beauty; give your mother a revenge as sweet as her injuries are great; infuse into the bosom of that haughty girl a passion for some low, mean, unworthy being, so that she may reap a mortification as great as her present exultation and triumph."

Cupid prepared to obey the commands of his mother. There are two fountains in Venus's garden, one of sweet waters, the other of bitter. Cupid filled two amber vases, one from each fountain, and suspending them from the top of his quiver, hastened to the chamber of Psyche, whom he found asleep. He shed a few drops from the bitter fountain over her lips, though the sight of her almost moved him to pity; then touched her side with the point of his arrow. At the touch she awoke, and opened eyes upon Cupid (himself invisible), which so startled him that in his confusion he wounded himself with his own arrow. Heedless of his wound, his whole thought now was to repair the mischief he had done, and he poured the balmy drops of joy over all her silken ringlets.

Psyche, henceforth frowned upon by Venus, derived no benefit from all her charms. True, all eyes were cast eagerly upon her, and every mouth spoke her praises; but neither king, royal youth, nor plebeian presented himself to demand her in marriage. Her two elder sisters of moderate charms had now long been married to two royal princes; but Psyche, in her lonely apartment, deplored her solitude, sick of that beauty which, while it procured abundance of flattery, had failed to awaken love.

Her parents, afraid that they had unwittingly incurred the anger of the gods, consulted the oracle of Apollo, and received this answer, "The virgin is destined for the bride of no mortal lover. Her future husband awaits her on the top of the mountain. He is a monster whom neither gods nor men can resist."

This dreadful decree of the oracle filled all the people with dismay, and her parents abandoned themselves to grief. But Psyche said, "Why, my dear parents, do you now lament me? You should rather have grieved when the people showered upon me undeserved honors, and with one voice called me a Venus. I now perceive that I am a victim to that name. I submit. Lead me to that rock to which my unhappy fate has destined me."

Accordingly, all things being prepared, the royal maid took her place in the procession, which more resembled a funeral than a nuptial pomp, and with her parents, amid the lamentations of the people, ascended the mountain, on the summit of which they left her alone, and with sorrowful hearts returned home.

While Psyche stood on the ridge of the mountain, panting with fear and with eyes full of tears, the gentle Zephyr raised her from the earth and bore her with an easy motion into a flowery dale. By degrees her mind became composed, and she laid herself down on the grassy bank to sleep.

To be continued...